Autumn Health Check In

 I'm getting pre-op stuff today. A Seed placement and an injection... These things are for seeing is any other lymph nodes are cancerous and if so they'll be removed during surgery tomorrow. So I'm bonafide nervous and scared.  Not that something will go wrong.  I'm actually confident that everything will be fine.  I'm. Just. Scared.  That's it.  Near tears all the time.  While I do appreciate all the well-wishes, "you got this", etc... such DO NOT alleviate my nerves.  I'm losing my left breast. I have much more to do and go through for another year. And beyond.  It's actually a bit infuriating. But I'm going to push through. I'll just be fussing along the way. 

 In 2 weeks I'll be having surgery. This is a bit scary and I'm trying not to go overboard preparing for everything BUT I don't want to not be prepared BUT I don't know what all to prepare for.  LMAOcrying.  For my peace and safety, I'll be at an extended stay hotel with kitchenette.  My mom is coming to take care of of me.  Asyre, my son, is autistic and is too strong for me in general and especially now.  I can't risk him being an ass, physically, with me. So that's why be I'll be out of the house for 2 weeks. 

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