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The Day Before

 I'm getting pre-op stuff today. A Seed placement and an injection... These things are for seeing is any other lymph nodes are cancerous and if so they'll be removed during surgery tomorrow. So I'm bonafide nervous and scared.  Not that something will go wrong.  I'm actually confident that everything will be fine.  I'm. Just. Scared.  That's it.  Near tears all the time.  While I do appreciate all the well-wishes, "you got this", etc... such DO NOT alleviate my nerves.  I'm losing my left breast. I have much more to do and go through for another year. And beyond.  It's actually a bit infuriating. But I'm going to push through. I'll just be fussing along the way. 

Two Weeks out

 In 2 weeks I'll be having surgery. This is a bit scary and I'm trying not to go overboard preparing for everything BUT I don't want to not be prepared BUT I don't know what all to prepare for.  LMAOcrying.  For my peace and safety, I'll be at an extended stay hotel with kitchenette.  My mom is coming to take care of of me.  Asyre, my son, is autistic and is too strong for me in general and especially now.  I can't risk him being an ass, physically, with me. So that's why be I'll be out of the house for 2 weeks. 

Amazon wish list for post surgery stuff

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Update. Rescheduled

They've moved my surgery to June 24th. Both surgeons had to be available at the same time (breast surgery and reconstructive surgeon) It's been 2 weeks since my final chemo. Side effects feel worse this time around. I finally got a name for one of my symptoms that's been going on for months. Affecting my hands and feet https://www.breastcancer.org/treatment-side-effects/hand-foot-syndrome For the life of me I don't understand why, when I say hey this is bothering me, they don't immediately let me know that it's a side effect and what it is called. I just got "oh okay". Why do I have to look up every little thing? I avoided a lot of stuff because I didn't want to go doom scrolling down a rabbit hole of chemo horror stories.  And today day in my websearching, I got confirmation of what I'm already realizing. Rest does not alleviate some of my fatigue. Repeat and rephrase: It is not kind of fatigue that rest will alleviate. I'm pissed and resi...

Surgery Scheduled

 Good day, Party People. Sorry I haven't been posting. Final chemotherapy treatment will be next week, 5/11. My surgery is scheduled for June 3rd.  NOW I'm nervous. I know post-surgery is difficult, but I have no idea what to expect.  I haven't had any major surgery before. After the surgery I will have a Radiation treatment of the left chest wall. The procedure will be Mastectomy of the left breast and removal of one lymph node. I plan to have a reconstruction done, but won't know when.  I think the options are close to surgery but after radiation; or much later, after healing. I have a plastic surgery consult on 5/9.

2nd chemo

 Had the treatment on Wed, 2/16. Today is Tuesday 2/22. This shit sucks. I'm nauseous and somewhat weak. I can't imagine what the next FOUR treatments will be like. 

Port Replacement

 Today's procedure went well! The radiologist said the previous one was placed way too low. It was near the top of my breast, when it should have been just under my clavicle (collarbone). That's where the new one is now.  I'm resting. In a bit of localized pain. 👍 Drugs. Lol New trivia: certain classes of Radiologist can perform certain types of surgery. This procedure used live x-ray imagery so they could see exactly where things were being placed.